May 31, 2009

sweet!

I just checked the back of my Polar watch - it says "Water Resistant 50m." YAY!!!!

I went and got a hideous one-piece from Walmart. It's plain black...and gross...but whatever.

I plan on getting my Michael Phelps on later tonight at the community center (and I mean lap-swimming, not pot-smoking).

I plan on using swimming as a supplement to the Shred. This weather makes it darn near impossible to go running!!

Now on to research swimming as a workout...

a new low.

I slept until 12:57 pm today. Do people really still do that?!

I had no idea it was so late when I woke up. I guess I was sleepy...but now this whole day feels shot! I can't workout until this evening because it is so steamy hot outside.

And I was supposed to clean the patio and backyard...ha...probably not gonna happen.

I feel like a useless college student. And I don't like it!

May 30, 2009

solo saturday.

So, I'm thinking I want to take up swimming. I still have a membership at my community center and they have a fabulous pool. With this thought comes two questions, though.

1. Where the heck does one get a one-piece, non-fugly, breathable/swimmable bathing suit?

and

2. Are our Polar watches waterproof??

I have a feeling with school getting out soon the community center pool is gonna be packed. Ugh. Maybe this wasn't such a good idea after all. But running in this weather is just torture...how nice it would be to be in the cool water AND get a workout!

On another note, I went to Garden Ridge and bought us some snazzy patio furniture. I've been wanting some since we moved here...4 years ago...but just never got around to it. Aaron wants to invite his crew and their families over for a BBQ when they get back so that prompted the purchase. I'll have pictures once everything is set up. I have to put together the table myself...I might have to outsource some labor for that project.

Other than that, it's another lonely weekend with the dog and a bowl of popcorn. My boyfriend favorite performer, Justin Timberlake, is going to be on SNL tonight (it's a re-run), so at least I have that to look forward to.

May 29, 2009

no one messes with you when you're walking a "cop dog."

No one, that is, except little boys on bikes with toothy grins, of course.

As Texas and I were nearing the end of our walk, a little boy on a bike rides up to me and says, "That's a cop dog!"

"Sure is," I said.

The boy proceeded to get off his bike and walk towards Texas. Texas, of course, was a pure gentleman. "You can pet him if you want; he won't hurt you," I said.

So the little boy pet Texas' head.

"I know what cop dogs eat," said the little boy.

"Really? What do they eat?" I asked.

"Meat!"

The little boy then got back on his bike road away. Fearless, those little boys. I hope I have one of my own someday.

down for the count.

I knew it was just a matter of time before the stress of this last month caught up to me: I'm sick.

I just feel wretched and have no motivation to do anything, which STINKS because I have a lot I want to do!

I also hurt my back doing Level 2 of the Shred yesterday. I should have known better than to do the plank stuff. I have a bad back (like, old lady bad) and planks have always been a no-no. I pushed it too hard and sure enough -- injured.

So now I'm torn. Do I continue working out and life as normal even though I feel awful? Or do I just hang out on the couch until this "thing" goes away?

I hate being sick and injured!!!

May 28, 2009

loved.

I am listening to the Hillsong United radio station on Pandora and my heart is beating fast at how happy it makes me.

This deployment has been such an emotional roller coaster. Just two days ago I was feeling the lowest of low. I was feeling very sad, insecure (for inward and emotional reasons, not because I have love handles), and generally unsettled in my heart and mind. And now today...I sing a different song.

Words cannot express how true it is that when you draw near to God, he draws near to you. Everything has a way of working itself out when you simply be still and know that He is in control.

I feel, for today at least, as though a blanket of love and comfort has been laid upon me. Does that sound cheesy? I feel confident. I feel secure. I am at peace today.

This deployment has taught me that everyday is a battle. And that continues even when Aaron is NOT deployed. This world is gross. Life is tough. We need to wake up each day knowing that today is all that matters. We must make it the best we can. We must take comfort in the shadow of His wings. Love your family. Love yourself. Love God and give him praise for the good things in your life each and every day - even when it seems there is very little good at all.

Two days ago I forgot all those things. Today I remember.

And what a difference a day makes!


P.S. Sorry to bog you down with all this "spiritual talk." It's just on my mind...and I'm sure you're tired of hearing me talk about Reba and working out, anyway.

May 27, 2009

not feelin' the blog lately.

I don't know what it is; I guess I just don't have much to write about these days. So...you get more bullets. Sorry.
  • I did not sleep at all last night. I was constantly hot and uncomfortable and I couldn't "breef." Sure enough, I woke up this moring with a head cold. Ugh.
  • My in-laws left this morning. They are so good to me! Aaron's dad fixed up our vehicles and took care of the slats under the guest bed that always cause the mattress to fall! And of course, Aaron's mom treated me extra special. We had BBQ last night and they stayed the night with me and left today after lunch. Sad!
  • I didn't workout today mostly because I couldn't keep my eyes open. I had "morning sickness" all day - no, I'm not pregnant. But from what my preggo friends have described, that's what it felt like. I was nauseated all day! It was awful. I don't know what's wrong with me. I guess I caught a bug or something.
  • Only four more days left in May...
  • My Dad had a good day today! They got him out of the bed and he was able to walk a little ways. His breathing is slowly getting better. I hope that they can release him soon so that he and my mom can resume a "normal" life back home.
  • I read the Bible last night for like, an hour. All Psalms, too. It's my fave. Then I picked up an "devotional" I've had since college and I wanna share what it said:
"Man is made that he can carry the weight of twenty-four hours, no more. Directly he weighs down with the years behind, and the days ahead, his back breaks...For weal or woe each day is ended. What remains to be lived, the coming twenty-four hours, you must face as you awake.

A man on a march on Earth carries only what he needs for that march. Would you pity him if you saw him bearing too the overwhelming weight of the worn-out shoes and uniforms of past marches and years? And yet, in the mental and spiritual life, man does these things. Small wonder My poor world is heartsick and weary."

W-O-W. I am so thankful His mercies are new every morning and that the past is always just that - passed. I am also thankful that we need not worry about tomorrow. It's kind of nice knowing we were only meant to carry the weight of twenty-four hours. Puts a lot of things in perspective, doesn't it?

May 26, 2009

turbo post.

  • I had a BLAST with Kelly in San Angelo this weekend. I cried when I had to leave! Love those people!
  • I gained 4 pounds over the weekend. Seriously?! I knew I was eating bad, but I didn't think it was THAT bad. I worked out extra hard this morning and tried to sweat out as much of that garbage as I could. Talk about a huge setback! It is oh-so-depressing, but there's nothing to do but keep on keepin' on.
  • I didn't even realize Hubby and I are in the 20s on our countdown until just now!! That's fabulous!!
  • It's still too long to wait, though.
  • Dad's still in the hospital. We are so frustrated because we just want him home! I think being home would make him a lot happier. Keep praying.
  • Not sure what to do with myself now that most of my shows have ended. It's so sad.
  • My in-laws are in town. They're staying the night with me tonight. Woohoo! Slumber party!
  • I miss my husband.
  • I need a shower.
  • Bye for now.

May 21, 2009

the new photos on backflip!

Click here to see the slide show!

i get it, God. i am tall enough to ride this rollercoaster. can we go home now?

Well, last night my Dad took a turn for the worst. My mom called me at 1 in the morning, which is never a good sign, and said that he was being taken back into ICU because he wasn't breathing well on his own. The doctors speculated that it was blood clots in his lungs. Fabulous.

Then I got another call at 2 in the morning from my Mom with more of the same information.

I was sick to my stomach all night long. Just absolutely worried and feeling wretched. I managed to finally fall asleep sometime - it was around 3 or 4 am.

I woke up today still wondering, worried...and to be honest, a bit angry. Enough's enough!!!!!

Then...my Mom called me about 10 minutes ago and said Dad is being taken out of ICU because all tests last night revealed there is absolutely nothing wrong. No blood clots. He's responsive. He's talking.

Talk about an emotional roller coaster!!!!!

I am ready for this to be over. I just want him and my Mom to be able to go home and live their normal lives. I know they've only been in the hospital for a week and three days, but I am NOT a patient person. I feel, of course, that my faith is being tested. Enough testing!!!! I get it! You a Sovereign Lord. I know it. I believe it. You've proven it a million times. My faith is unwavering. You are in control. You are amazing, God. You really are.

But can he just come home now?

May 20, 2009

for posting's sake.

  • Kelly and Chad and Chris will be here in less than 24 hours. CANNOT WAIT.
  • Go Kris Allen! I am so proud to be an Arkansan...at least for the moment. I'm glad he won! I had a feeling he would...
  • So You Think You Can Dance premieres tomorrow. There are no words to convey my excitement.
  • Dad's still in the hospital recuperating. He's in okay shape last I heard. Thank you all again for your prayers and well-wishes.
  • I will be in San Angelo on Friday. Woohoo! Road trips!
  • I had a Starbucks today for the first time in a long time. It was glorious.
  • I am totally boring right now. I got nothing.
  • Sorry.

May 18, 2009

success!

Dad's shunt surgery went off without a hitch! Amen! Amen! Amen!

He'll be in surgical ICU tonight and Mom will get to see him later today. All three surgeons who operated said everything went well, no complications.

Now we'll be on the road to recovery.

God is faithful, y'all!

anxious.

Dad's in surgery right now. My stomach kinda hurts. I'm still confident. But I'll be even more confident when my Mom calls and says everything went okay.

Pray.

May 17, 2009

sneak preview.

Don't forget to read the post below this one.

Here's a sneaky-poo at the shoot from today.

This first picture is my absolute favorite and gives me unspeakable joy...and he's not even my kid. I can only imagine...













And these are just a few goodies, y'all. Keep checkin' back!

a thought free-for-all.

I had a photo shoot today with the Smith family.

So. Stinkin. Cute.

I can't wait to get the pictures ready and post them! Be looking for them soon!

My dad is set to get the shunt tomorrow at 11am. Please pray for him tomorrow. I am completely at peace about this surgery (which is wonderful), but please pray anyway. Pray for my Mom! She is just so exhausted. I'm more worried about her right now than I am my Dad, to be honest. I have every confidence that tomorrow is going to go 100% a-okay. I have every confidence that this shunt will help him incredibly. My Mom was in tears today over the phone because she has been praying and praying that God would send someone into their lives who could help. And He did. Because He's amazing. HE IS SO GOOD. PRAY!

I can't believe that May is more than halfway over. I am beyond pleased that May is halfway over, but my goodness - it has gone by quickly! I hope the rest of the month (and deployment) are just as speedy.

Speaking of deployments, my husband and his crew won Crew of the Quarter...because they're awesome. I am a proud wife!

Since there is only about a month left until Aaron gets back, I have gone into total nesting mode! I have the urge to clean out and organize everything! And I totally know Aaron doesn't care if the house is clean and perfect. Why are we women wired like this!? I have made a list of things to do - one for everyday I am in town until he comes back. It'll keep me busy and hey...will make the house look nicer!

I am super excited about Kelly and Chad coming to see me on Thursday! They are bringing along with them Chad's brother - the more the merrier! We are going to probably have dinner that night with Dom and Shannon and then the next day we're OFF TO SAN ANGELO!!!! I cannot wait! I haven't been to my college town since I left in 2005! Craziness. I bet a lot has changed. It's gonna be so nice being in familiar territory again. Or who knows? Maybe it won't be all that familiar. Either way, a 9-hour road trip with awesome people is always a good thing in my book! Can't wait!

I have been working on a scrapbook. I know, can you believe it? Me? A scrapbook? This will likely be the only scrapbook I ever complete because its contents are very important to me. I am putting my box of "Aaron stuff" into scrapbook format. I am keeping the design very simple - all black pages, no stickers and gaudy embellishments. A few commentaries here and there hand-written and attached to pretty paper. That's it. So far, I LOVE IT. I can't wait to show it to him when he gets back. Such good memories, ya know?

Ok...time to edit those pictures!

what is the best thing money can't buy?

From Real Simple magazine:

"There is no price for the tears of joy that flow when you see your loved one for the first time after a deployment to Iraq. All the months of struggle and loneliness are washed away when he gets off the plane."

Alexandra Gaustad
Havertown, Pennsylvania


So true. So true. So true.

May 15, 2009

daddy update.

The results came back from his MRI and lumbar puncture. The problem, as predicted, is his spinal fluids.

So...Dad will receive a VP shunt on Monday.

It's pretty evasive surgery, but it's routine. This procedure is actually very common among babies. The surgery will only last about an hour and he will have two surgeons operating at the same time - one working in the brain; the other working in the abdomen. Pray, of course, that the surgery goes well and this will FINALLY be the help he needed. His spirit is young and his heart and brain are healthy. There is NO REASON he needs to be held back anymore. There is still so much life for him to live. And I really want him around to hold his grand-baby.

No, I'm not pregnant, but that would have been an excellent way to spill the beans.

Keep prayin, y'all! It's working!!!!!! Our God is so faithful.

grey's anatomy and dad.

Spoiler Alert: Do NOT read this if you haven't watched the season finale yet. This will ruin everything for you. You've been warned.

Ok, first of all...if Meredith and Derek don't get married very soon, I am going to get angry...and violent.

I HATED the ending. How can they do that to us?

"007" gave me goosebumps. I literally got chills.

O'Malley in the uniform at the end with the buzz cut? I BAWLED.

Korev crying while they desperately tried to revive Izzy? I BAWLED.

What an emotional two hours! Great television, y'all. Just wish it hadn't have been such a cliff-hanger. Guess they got me for another season...ha.

On a different note, my Dad had a MRI today and the lumbar puncture. He did ok, but is having trouble breathing on his own while he's coming off of the anesthesia.

They have him on a ventilator and he is heavily sedated to keep him from getting worked up/moving around. He was wiggling his toes earlier, so we know he's ok...I have confidence his breathing will be back to normal once the drugs wear off, but my Mom is just a wreck over all of this. Just pray. Please.

May 14, 2009

do i hafta?

I have my annual "girl exam" today. As much as I don't enjoy these exams, I'd still rather do this than go to the dentist. And I'm totally serious.

And as much as I don't enjoy these exams, it is necessary in order to get BC pills. And BC pills are necessary...or else a deployment baby will be made in June.

I should probably go shave my legs.

May 13, 2009

seriously, y'all...

I am blond!!!!!!

I know, I know. Pictures cometh.

P.S. Please read my post below for an update on Dad.

a sort-of update.

First off, I cannot even begin to express how loved all of your kind words have made me feel. I was blown away by the outpouring of your concern and prayers and thoughts and I thank you.

Your prayers for peace have been answered. In the last two days, I have felt that peace that passes understanding. It in incredible, just absolutely incredible, how God is able to take care of us in just the way we need Him to. My heart is peaceful. My mind is sound. And it is ONLY because you prayed. So again...thank you.

There's not much to update, but here's what I know. Dad is FINALLY in competent hands. He will undergo a MRI soon and will also have a lumbar puncture done (AKA spinal tap) to determine if the lack of fluid-flow is the problem. If it is, then he will have a shunt placed in his brain that will help keep those spinal fluids working the way they're supposed to. Of course, all of this is up in the air and I am sure I am botching the medical terms and whatnot. I am just so relieved that he is finally with people who are willing to help and who will NOT turn him away, like so many other doctors have done in the last couple years.

He and my Mom are (of course) still at the hospital in San Antonio and they are pretty much just waiting it out until these tests can be administered.

Dad says that having a shunt is going to put a hole in his head. I googled it -- and he was right. But you know what? The doctors said that IF the problem was spinal fluids, a shunt could very well get him walking on his own two feet again - no walker! THAT WOULD BE A MIRACLE. And I believe it can happen.

Keep praying. Keep hoping. Pray wisdom over the doctors and that Dad finally, finally will get the treatment he needs and so deserves.

May 11, 2009

these are the times that try (wo)men's souls...

You know the things we worry the most about most often never even happen...and the things that knock us to the ground are the things we least expect.

My dad is currently in the hospital in San Antonio. There a lot of things wrong with him, but most recently (today) they sent him - via ambulance - to a specialist to determine why his legs won't hold him up. Yes, you read that right. My father cannot stand.

To say things are not good right now is an understatement. How I wish my husband, my best friend, was with me during this trying time. Although I know he can't take this away, having him near me would help. Incredibly.

I am a realist with an optimist lean. I have faith and believe. I know all things are possible. It has been proven time and time again. But that doesn't stop me from fearing the worst. But as I was praying on the drive to work this afternoon, I heard God quietly whisper, "It's not time." I trust in that. I have to. I've learned to hold tight to that small, still voice...and believe.

God does not give you more than you can handle. I have been praying that for years - that I will be fully prepared and able to "handle" the devastation that accompanies the loss of a parent. My pastor once said, "Do not mourn for what hasn't yet been lost." So, I won't. I remain hopeful. I will seek the peace that passes understanding. I will not have a spirit of fear.

But I hurt incredibly. I feel overwhelmed by the enormity of the ugliness in this world and I am broken over how illness can make a man not able to stand on his own two feet.

Pray.

the sweetest thing you ever did see.

Remember that trip that had my husband nervous and anxious? Well, it was to Africa! And guess what? It was a total success! He got to fly to Ethiopia, Kenya, and stayed in the Horn of Africa at this place called Djibouti (pronounced Jih-booty). I am so proud of him!

Here's a photo that totally melts my heart. I guess it's because Aaron just looks so sweet and gentle. *Sigh. I love that guy.

Aaron feeding a monkey a granola bar in Ethiopia. :)

May 10, 2009

on my mind...

The Riddle of the Sphinx:

What goes on four legs in the morning, on two legs at noon, and on three legs in the evening?

The answer, of course, is man. We crawl in the morning (the beginning of life), walk on two legs in the middle of life, and use a cane for support near the end of life.

I won't go into great detail, but this is just what's on my mind. Darn those college literature classes...

May 9, 2009

of the river.

Have you guys seen this new "insert-a-song" thing on blogger? I'm testing it out in this post...

Anyway, all I was going to say was that I'm in Del Rio. It's hot. It makes me lazy. And that's about it.

I'll be back in good ol Arkansuck tomorrow night.

P.S. I'm thinkin' this music thing doesn't work. What does it do on your computer? Anyone?

P.P.S. Figured it out. It's just a signature. Like, if I had this song playing on my blog somewhere, I could leave this signature on a post to let you know what was playing. That's kinda dumb.

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Now playing: John Mayer - Why Georgia (feat. Brad Paisley)
via FoxyTunes

May 6, 2009

a work funny.

I was working with a 5-year-old boy today at Sylvan.

I asked him what the word "characters" meant - he knew it! I asked him what the word "setting" meant - he knew that, too!

I then asked him if he could copy down the words "characters" and "setting" from my teacher notes onto his marker board. He happily obliged even though he knew they were "long" words and sometimes has difficulty writing his letters correctly.

I looked at his work and commented that he did a good job. He looked up at me, and says...

"That thing is the hardest thing, ever! I don't even know what that is!!!"

"What thing?" I asked.

I had to laugh - he was pointing to the letter "g."

May 4, 2009

a new etsy shop to heart!

My dear friend Lana just made her own etsy shop after much poking and prodding from yours truly -- and a million other people.

Go check her out! She's amazingly talented!!!!!

a good, old-fashioned prayer request.

Please pray for my husband.

Nothing major is wrong. He's just under a lot of stress and anxiety right now as he prepares for a trip. I'd love to go into more detail, but I can't. :/

Just pray that God would ease his mind and that he would feel confident in the mission at hand. Pray for a focused brain and calm nerves.

Thanks :)

May 3, 2009

sharing the goodness.

These cupcakes are to die for. I know they're only 140 calories each...but I don't think that gives me the freedom to eat them all in one night...I really want to, though!!


RED VELVET INSANITY CUPCAKES

Only 140 calories each, including the frosting.

Ingredients:

For cupcakes...
1 cup moist-style devil's food cake mix
1 cup moist-style yellow cake mix
Two packets of diet hot cocoa mix
1/2 cup fat-free liquid egg substitute
1/4 cup mini semi-sweet chocolate chips, divided
1 tbs. red food coloring
1 tsp. Splenda No Calorie Sweetener (granulated)
1/8 tsp. salt

For frosting...
6 tbs. Jet-Puffed Marshmallow Creme
6 tbs. Cool Whip Free, thawed
1/4 cup fat-free cream cheese, room temp
1 tbs. Splenda No Calorie Sweetener (granulated)

Directions:

Preheat oven to 350 degrees.

In a medium bowl, combine all frosting ingredients except for the Cool Whip until mixed well. Fold in Cool Whip and refrigerate until cupcakes are ready to be frosted.

In a tall glass, place half of the choc chips and the contents of both cocoa packets. Add 1/2 cup boiling water and stir until chips and cocoa mix have dissolved. Add 1 cup cold water and mix well.

Pour cocoa mixture into a large mixing bowl. Add cake mixes, egg substitute, remaining choc chips, food coloring, Splenda, and salt. Whisk for about 2 minutes, until smooth and blended. Batter will be thin, but don't worry - your cupcakes will puff up once baked!

Line a 12-muffin pan with baking cups and/or spray with nonstick spray. Evenly distribute batter among the cups. Bake in the oven for 15-20 minutes. Cupcakes will look shiny when done.

Allow cupcakes to cool completely, then evenly distribute the frosting over the tops. Enjoy!!

Makes 12 Servings

bypassing the man.

The passport dilemma is solved!

I found Aaron's old passport from when his parents lived in England (and he looks super hot in the picture, by the way) and thanks to wonderful Kelly, found out that I can simply get this one renewed! YAY!

Aaron already filled out the application from over yonder and is mailing it to me today AND he already got someone to take homemade passport photos of himself which have also been sent to me via email. What a good husband! So on the ball! I wish I could hug him for being so on top of things.

Now all I have to do it wait for his application to come in from over yonder and send it off!

I thought I was going to have to go to Walmart to get his photos printed, but alas, I did it from home for free! I googled how to make digital photos 2x2 and started downloading Adobe Photoshop. I thought, "Surely there must be an easier way." So, I clicked around in Picasa and whaddya know? A option for "passport photos."

Seriously?!

I clicked on it and viola! Automatic passport photo format. I printed them out on "best" quality, cut them out to fit the box and badda bing badda boom: Passport photos.

I'm a happy girl.

May 1, 2009

mark your calendars...

The Webbs are going to Jamaica to feel alright!

I officially booked our stay at Sandals Grande Ocho Rios resort! I am sooooooo excited!

After much deliberation, we are all set! Now my husband just needs to get back into the country...haha.

We are going to be staying in a villa (ooh la la) that only houses 5 couples, max -- which is a very good thing. The booking agent said we might "get lucky" and be the only couple in the villa. We'd have the entire place to ourselves, including the pool! Ow! Ow! Whether we have the villa to ourselves or not, I don't care! Read what all the Plantation Villa One Bedroom Suite comes with:
  • A large patio or balcony (depending on which floor we're on)
  • Complimentary concierge service! (He/she will do everything for us, including haul our luggage, book our excursions, etc.)
  • Champagne upon our arrival
  • A "airy parlor" and kitchen
  • His/her bath robes - which I'm really excited about!
  • An in-room, fully stocked bar!
  • A semi-private pool which could turn into a totally private pool if the villa isn't completely booked.
  • A 4-poster king size bed
  • Pure quiet as our villa is nested in the gardens, away from the hustle and bustle of the main buildings, restaurants, etc.
  • Oh, and most importantly, a copy of The New York Times delivered at our door each morning...ha.
To say I'm excited for this is an understatement. Did I mention we're staying there for SEVEN nights? Ahhhh!!! Here are some pictures of the villas.

Now I just have to pray (really, I am praying about this) that his passport will be done in enough time for us to go...he can't apply for it until he gets back!!! That's a little stressful to think about but I have faith and believe that the US State Department will follow through!

I know this post sounds a bit braggadocio but...at the end of the day, I think Aaron and I both deserve it. Doesn't everyone deserve a trip like this every now and then?

new photos on backflip!

Check them out here!

i've got two tickets to paradise...

Literally!

I found an AWESOME deal online last night and was able to book Aaron and myself two tickets to Jamaica for only $658! Isn't that insane?! The Sandals "included airfare" was going to cost $1,400! Craziness!

I went to bed with a smile on my face just thinking about this upcoming trip. SEVEN nights in Jamaica with the hottest man on Earth...*whimsical sigh*

I can't wait!


P.S. It's MAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
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