June 30, 2010

jamaica beckons...

I asked Husband what he wants to do while we're in Jamaica.

His response?

"Sit."

Perfection.

June 23, 2010

seriously, blog?! seriously?!

Dear Blog,

You mean to tell me that when I actually had the TIME to play with your design, I couldn't add pages? Now that I have zero time for anything, you add this feature?!?!

Which can also do this?!?

Maybe I'll be able to get to this when I'm on freggin' maternity leave...

I'm mad at you, blogger. Very, very mad.

Love,
Cassandra

On another note, thank you, everyone for your kind words and sentiments regarding my daddy's passing away. I still sort of feel like I'm in a dream. I'm convinced there's some safety valve in operation right now. It comes and goes, like waves. I miss him. But...things are made easier by loving friends. So, thank you. Very much.

June 21, 2010

my daddy.

Well.

My dad passed away at 4am on Monday, June 14, 2010.

What a week it has been.

I don't really know what to say, as there is SO MUCH to say. I just feel like I should blog about it because well, that's what's going on these days.

Not sure how much to divulge on here, either.

These things I know for certain:
  • He is Heaven and he is at peace. He has been made perfect and his body suffers no more. Hallelujah! I praise God for calling him home. I praise God for the victory that has been won. There are no more bodily assaults, no more attacks. He is free. And because of that, so am I.
  • My mother is the portrait of grace. Husband, mom, and I were there in my dad's last hours and the way she handled herself in those last hours was unlike anything I have ever seen. I wanted to take photos; it was just so painstakingly beautiful. She has never been more perfect to me. What a woman.
  • I have an amazing husband who never once hesitated when we got the call that dad's systems were failing. He got us out of Arkansas within two hours of receiving the news (we were both at work) and his support for my family was unwavering. He went above and beyond in everything he did. I have never been so proud to know that man. After all, what did he owe me? I am just a girl he met a bar one night. While my mother is the portrait of grace, my sweet Aaron is the portrait of strength. What would I do without him? I am overwhelmed with love for that man and thank God for him endlessly.
  • People are good. I was humbled by the many, many notes, cards, texts, calls, emails, etc. from wonderful people who showed their support the best way they could. People are good.
  • Nurses are angels sent to us in the time we need them most. They do the things we cannot handle. To say I have a new respect for nurses is the understatement of the century. My heart busts with admiration for Sandra and Ricky, who treated us that night with utmost compassion and respect. How they do what they do is beyond me.
  • Life is funny. God's timing is weird. But this I know: I am going to be okay. His mercies are new every morning. He gives and takes away. He is close to the broken-hearted. His eye is even on the sparrow, so I know He watches me.
I could go on forever, but I really don't want to. Please pray for us during this time and for my sweet mama, who has lost her best friend. Despite knowing he truly is free and, I imagine, playing baseball at sunset somewhere beautiful, this will be no easy road for us who are left behind.

What an amazing comfort it is to know that he is perfect again. I trust (and find rest) in that.

June 10, 2010

mission possible!

Ever since I went back to work, Husband and I created (in our very special, Type-A, OCD ways), a spreadsheet with a list of duties called “Operation: Preserve our Weekends.” We did this in an effort to save ourselves from the misery that was the three years I taught. We didn’t quite understand how to balance our lives back then and all the mundane tasks of life were saved for the weekends (i.e. laundry, grocery shopping, cleaning, etc.) I refused to go back to that way of life so we established a plan where all those mundane things would be done BEFORE the weekend. That way, we could have Saturday and Sunday totally free to do what we actually WANT to do, not what we have to do.

Mondays: Create meal plan and grocery list together. This mostly falls on my shoulders but I’m okay with that because…

Tuesday: Aaron goes grocery shopping. He goes to the commissary on base right after work and I come home to a kitchen full of groceries! It is quite amazing, really. I have to brag on him for this because he knows how much I LOATHE grocery shopping (almost as much as I loathe doing the dishes) and he continually grocery shops each week with zero complaints. Sigh. What a good husband.

Wednesday: I work on the laundry. It’s usually never finished and put away until Thursday (sometimes Friday), but it’s still better than suffering through the masses of clothing on the weekends! And what’s more – I actually sort of enjoy doing the laundry. I know, weird. I love how clean my clothes smell and how perfect they look on the hangers and well, it’s a sickness.

Husband is supposed to feed the dog every night, but I usually have to remind him to do that or when he’s flying at night, I take care of it. I really can’t wrap my mind around why this is such a big deal. It only takes about 2 minutes. Why is it always such a pain?

I am the primary cook and in a perfect world, Husband would clean the kitchen. But that’s never worked out. Luckily, we have an amazing dishwasher. If I ask him to clean the kitchen I get the same response every time: “I’ll do it later.” I’ve learned that “later” usually means the next day…or the day after that. Ew! In his defense, though, he will empty the dishwasher and the sink when I least expect it. He’s a crafty devil. And then of course, he will grill without even being asked. It’s a coincidence that the recipes I compile usually involve meat of some sort…strange.

The rest of our week is spent doing (mostly) the fun stuff we WANT to do. It’s a marvelous system and in the month or so I’ve been working, our system has also been working for us! What a relief! It’s so streamlined that last weekend I actually had time to sew, cook, watch TV, and *gasp* do nothing! That was so not the case before.

Oh, and about the cleaning? Well, we hired a cleaning lady who comes once every two weeks. And she is worth every penny. I do a general pick-up of the house on Sunday afternoons, though – just to set the proper pace for the week. I like a clean house, y’all.

Still awake? I know that was less than riveting. But that’s all I got!

June 6, 2010

lame-o is my name-o.

I have got to start making my blog a priority! It seems I have no time for anything computer-related these days, other than work. Ugh!

I apologize for my sparse posts. I will try to do better.

For now, we bullet.
  • Husband and I are getting professional portraits taken today with Paige Horras Photography. I am so excited to be on the other side of the camera for once! I am wearing all white. Why? Because our 5-year anniversary is this month!! I want the photos to commemorate that and serve as our "last photos" of just the two of us. Husband thinks it's a waste of money. What does he know? Ha!
  • Regarding the pregnancy, everything is going well. I made the stupid mistake of attempting the 3o-Day Shred a few days ago. Wow. What a mistake! Eleven minutes into it, I just knew something was wrong. I stopped immediately and felt TERRIBLE the whole night. I had major cramps in my stomach and was certain that I did something horrific to myself and the baby. I called our nurse and she assured me that I was probably experiencing pulled muscles. I took some Tylenol, drank lots of water, and went to bed at 9pm! The next day, I was sore like the crazy, but the pains in my abdomen were gone. What a scare that was! From now on, it's walking or elliptical or swimming ONLY!!
  • Here's the long-awaited belly pic, by the way. 15 weeks! Much more round from the vantage of the second angle, clearly.



  • I told my employer on Thursday about the pregnancy. She reacted wonderfully! I was so nervous, as Boss is a tad intimidating. But she received the news well and even said she suspected I might be with child ;) What a relief to know I am free to let this belly "hang out." I felt like I was misleading my co-workers, living a lie of sorts. There is such freedom in the truth, no?
  • On a non-pregnancy-related note, Husband and I are headed to JAMAICA again this summer! We figure we need one more good vacation before Baby Webb is born. Since we loved our experience in Jamaica so much (once you go, you know), we are going back to the same resort! It seems silly, but after researching other resorts, we still get more bang for our buck at Ochos Rios. Plus, since we already know what to expect, it will make trip-planning SO much easier! I'll be about 20ish weeks pregnant by then, but I don't care. I'll rock the baby gut in a tankini ;)
  • Work is still great. I think I have the best job in my field in my market. How many people can say that? My responsibilities are plenty and it's a tad overwhelming, but it is WAY better than teaching ever was. I am very happy where I am and I enjoy all my co-workers. I don't miss being at home during the day, but I do miss having the time to exercise and do mundane things like laundry and grocery shop while everyone else is at work. For those who work full-time: When do you find time to exercise?
  • Speaking of exercise (or lack thereof), I've gained 5 pounds since I found out I was pregnant. I'd say that's not too bad since I'm already in the 2nd trimester, right? Right?! LOL.
  • I'm going to help Husband pick out his outfit for the photos this evening. Should be lots of fun...
 
Designed by Munchkin Land Designs • Copyright 2014 • All Rights Reserved