January 30, 2011


One of my Phi Lamb sorority sisters passed away this Thursday after receiving a double lung transplant that just didn't "take." She had been battling cystic fibrosis since the age of two.

Not only was Jenifer in my sorority, but we also shared an apartment during my senior year of college. Although she and I lived two very separate lives during that time (I truly believe I was depressed that year and acted accordingly, which was NOT a good thing), a certain bond, I believe, still exists between two people who have ever shared a home.

I knew that most people with cystic fibrosis typically do not live lengthy lives. It saddened me when Jenifer would get sick. I felt helpless and guilty for my perfect health, which I took for granted.

I was so happy when Jenifer requested to be friends on Facebook a few months ago. This meant she was alive and well! I had lost touch with her after college, so it was so reassuring to see her again, even if it was over the computer. She married her college sweetheart, Tony - a truly wonderful guy. She went to physical therapy school. She was doing well. And that made me happy to see.

She truly did fight the good fight. My heart breaks to know that all her efforts to stay healthy just could not sustain her life. The Lord has called my precious friend home. It makes me so sad.

I was at church this morning and it felt like every, single song we sang was for Jenifer. Or maybe I just had her on my mind...

Either way, I heard this song for the first time today and oh, how it made me weep for her. I can only hope that she is basking in His glory, able to breathe freely in Heaven, as she so desperately wanted to do here on Earth.

I hope to share a Home with her again soon.

January 27, 2011

everything that matters.

since my car won't start and i'm stuck at home anyway...

I thought I'd blog.

And yes, our car won't start for whatever reason. I got me ready, the baby ready, the diaper bag ready, the grocery list ready only to walk out to the garage with baby in tow, crank the key, and nothing. I AM SO ANNOYED RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, rant over.

What I wanted to blog about was Vivian. Shocker, I know.

Two things:

1. A few days ago, I swore the child said the word "elephant." I know she didn't MEAN to say the word, but she said it...while looking at a toy elephant and immediately after I said the word. My kid's a genius. She repeats things I say often. It's amazing (whether it's all in my head or not doesn't matter). :)

2. No matter how fussy she is, if one sings her Stevie Nick's "Edge of Seventeen," the child smiles and coos like it's the best thing she's ever heard. Can you imagine? That song of all songs?! Listen and tell me that doesn't make you laugh.

January 26, 2011

a new venture.

A friend of mine from high school has started his own t-shirt company, Sundown United.

I was asked (after I exclaimed I would be happy to join) to become an editor/contributing writer to the Sundown blog. My task? Write a once-a-month post about books/literature. Uhm, yes, please!

Since I already always have a book going, I consider this job a very easy one. Check out my first post here. My friend used his editing eye and added the photos that you see there. I am proud of myself for joining this movement and feel kind of like me again. I miss writing and being part of something bigger than myself.

Speaking of, I petitioned my old editor to see if she needed any help writing features and taking photos for her papers. And she does! Yay! I'll get back into that as soon as I get my first story assignment. It feels sooooo good to be doing something other than washing bottles. I love my Vivian more than I've ever loved anyone in my life, but the "dailiness" of taking care of her is mind-numbing. Everyday is Groundhog Day and I desperately NEED an outlet, lest I go insane.

So, yes. Sundown United and paper-writing. Sounds good to me.

January 23, 2011

a woman's work.

Time for some venting: I am sooooo tired of always having to do everything around the house!!!!!! Am I the only one?!

No, I don't have a job So yes, I should do more around the house than my husband. I get that. But a little help would be nice!!!

And without being asked would be nicer. It's like that movie with Vince Vaughan and Jennifer Aniston: "I want you to WANT to wash the dishes." Seriously! Why can't men anticipate those needs? Like...if you don't wash the bottles the night before, guess what?! You won't have a clean one for the morning feeding!

If you feed the dog way too late in the day, guess what?! He'll have to go out at 3am!!!

I'm just annoyed at the moment. That's all. Ugh.

But really...does it not seem like a woman's work is NEVER done until her head hits the pillow?

January 18, 2011

vivian is two months old!

And I love her.

what's going on.

In case you were wondering, Jillian Michael's eating and workout plan definitely WORKS. I have lost 4.5 pounds in two weeks. Holla!

Thanks for the help in determining which photo is more "landscape-y." Photo A it is! I have one more portrait to take and then I'll send off my project and BE DONE with my coursework. Hallelujah! I can't wait for this stuff to be done!

I finished reading The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo last week. What a book! I really liked it until the end. The last 200 pages were grueling to get through. I doubt I'll continue the trilogy as I wasn't enamored with the first book. I am thinking about reading Bush's Decision Points next. Or the Hunger Games. I don't know.

We took Vivian to get her two-month shots yesterday. What an ordeal...for me. She was a champion. Husband said she reminded him of Lucy in the Chronicles of Narnia when Aslan tells her: "My dear, if you were any braver, you would be a lioness." (And of course that made me cry). We were so proud of our girl! She cried for a few seconds and then immediately fell asleep in my arms. She stayed asleep for about 5 hours, woke up to eat, then slept for 12 hours! Then another four. My poor baby! She seems to be herself again today, though. Smiles and coos galore :)

We have completely upgraded the entertainment tech in our living room. We donated all our old stuff (we were still living with college furniture and a college TV) and got a 55" 3D LED TV. Oh my, is it pretty! We also got some surround sound speakers and a Blu-Ray player. It was about time! I am proud of ourselves for living with our college stuff for so long, though. People would make fun of us when they came over because for some reason, a 27" Panasonic monster of a television was no longer "cool." ;) It feels good to pay for all this new, fancy stuff with cash. We can enjoy it more that way, you know? We tested out the 3D glasses and I was grinning like a little school girl. I can't wait to watch football on this television! We are blessed, indeed.

I am probably going to go back to freelancing here pretty soon, as well as saying I'm available for photo shoots again. I need to do something productive other than washing bottles everyday! I doubt getting a full-time job is in the cards for me just yet. I can't bear the idea of taking this little baby to day care. At least not yet. She's got to get a little bigger and more independent first. I know. I'm one of "those moms." It's ridiculous.

Ok, time to make my meal plan for the week.

January 13, 2011

help, please?

I am so close to finishing my coursework with the NY Institute of Photography I can almost taste it. To say I will be glad when this is all over is an understatement.

Because I have a newborn and being adventurous is (slightly) on the back-burner these days, I was forced to shoot my "landscape" portrait close to home. There's not too much inspiration in these parts, but I did the best with what I had...and with a newborn in the backseat of the car.

So, which one of these photos says "landscape" the most to you?

Photo A or Photo B?



Please leave a comment with your selection! Thanks so much!

January 12, 2011

is it just me?

Or does it seem like blogs are dying?

January 11, 2011

going to the gym.

I am headed to the gym once Husband gets home.

I am so nervous.

It's been months.

And I don't want to go.

But I gotta.

I'm scared.

January 6, 2011

let's do this, jillian!

Ok, I did it.

I finally signed up and paid for an account at jillianmichaels.com.

I don't get clearance from the doctor until Friday (hopefully), so I haven't started the workouts. I have started the eating better, though.

The recipes on the site are very different from what I'm used to eating - which is kinda the point. It took me FOREVER to grocery shop for all the ingredients because some of the foods were so foreign! I had no idea where to even find them. Who's ever eaten bok choy?!

So it's Day 2 and so far, so good. I am currently trying to eat a "Breakfast Parfait," which would be delicious if it were made with vanilla yogurt. Instead, it's made with plain, non-fat Greek yogurt which, my friends, is nasty. But alas, I need to broaden my food horizons. So if Jillian wants me to eat bok choy, I'll eat bok choy. I'll at least try everything once.

Here's to smaller clothes and a stomach that doesn't double as a pillow!
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